So I think it's time to post a journal....

I've been on here for here for about 2 years and now I'm finally I'm posting a blog lol XD

Anyways... I think about blog about my non extant love life XP

So recently I've been having dreams about the only ex I ever loved, and its been bothering me, cuz I knew it was trying to tell me something. I can't remember the first dream,but it had her in it that's all I can remember, and the second dream we were back together and and we were doing the things I want with her. The reason I never got to in the first place is mostly because fucking people were meddling, but if they didnt I wouldn't be were I'm at today. Anyways I believe those dreams were telling me that I'm ready to have all of that again, but not with her, I believe it just put her because she the closest person I can relate all of those things about.

So theres this girl that I noticed a while ago at an old bar called squiggies, back when it was called squigges not shifties O_o...,when I saw her I was in a state of OMG. The one thing that stood out about her is that she had blue in her hair, which was amazing... trust me on this. I tried to get a friend to look at her but she didnt notice at all.... XP. She was hanging out with, a now, friends girlfriend which to find out she was her sister... O_o...

Next week my bar closed *cough* a cake *cough* and I didnt go to the new karaoke location, but my friend ends up telling me that same girl was hot. I wanted to smack her for being a bit slow on that one lol and I didnt see that girl at another karaoke XP. So fast forward to now... I hung out with friend last night playing Rockband 2 and see shows up O_O and I go OMG *cough cough* again. She still looked really cute and at least this time I got to talk to her abit, but I doubt I made much of an impression. After she left I ended up leaving a hour or 2 later, and I had to tell my cousin that she was cute, and she agreed XD. So if I ever get more confidence in myself I'll try talking abit more, and maybe see if she wants to go on a date... maybe XD